There is something i haven't been mentioning because i thought it wasn't the right time to tell anyone yet... but for now i feel the need to let it all out.

It's not something that i'm going to vent my anger about, nor it's some tragic happened. My life is as peaceful and normal and ordinary as ever.
Just that...i think i've found a new path and a new future that i have always been trying to get to. ^^

As some of you know, i'm in a diploma course called veterinary technology, a very difficult course.
I, having not enough resolve at that time, chose this course instead of design courses which i wanted deep in my heart.
I've regretted it long ago, ever since i started the course.
But i kept lying to myself and my family that i was very interested in this course and i will work hard to complete this course.
However, i got so caught up with my interests that my grades are in the bottom of the valley.
If there is something that i believed in so much more than my current course, then why did i not chose the other route in the first place?

My previous attempt to obtain the other path was a complete failure.
I still have not enough awareness of what is going to come to me, and i made the foolish mistake of using the same old portfolio which i used 2 years ago.
And unluckily the interviewer were the same few as 2 years ago.
They regconise me and my drawings.
Their impression on me was "unchangable and stubborn" and i'm too full of myself.
Just manga or anime style drawings are not enough for their course.
Stupid me.
I've stayed in my course as i haven't send in the withdrawal form.
My parents were relieved.

This time, i've decided to give up of whatever i have now and go all out.
No turning back.
Withdrawal from my current course is what i'm planning to do.
There will be nowhere else for me to fall on, if i fail next round, i'll be left with nothing.

I don't mind not being a student for some time.
This might give me some time for self-improvement and exposing myself to the designing field, provided i can actually get employment from that field.
Perhaps i can sign up for some design certificate courses to gain some experience and knowledge.
I shall wait for the next intake of NAFA or some polys... the 2010 intake.
To get a diploma.
The fight is on.




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